she responds
to the whispers
with her own
I love yous
or maybe
I hate yous
one can never be too sure
in the dark
I Changed.
You made me swallow caterpillars
that blossomed into butterflies
rustling around inside,
but they morphed into moths
as they bubbled up
in the back of my throat
and as I screamed,
the locusts came pouring out.
Sometimes
my head floats,
a balloon caught in the breeze,
up and away,
no one knowing
when or where it will land.
Sometimes
my head is heavy,
made of lead
and needs a hand to hold it up,
otherwise it tilts,
making the world turn sideways.
The sadness hit me like a semi
fast and furious and raring to go
nowhere.
With the distractions gone,
there was no buffer,
padding, or cushion
to help me brace for impact.
I no longer think
we have long term potential
and that makes me blue
because what we had yesterday
was like looking at the sun-
so beautiful it hurt.
I am sitting at a table full of people that like pineapple on pizza.
Slightly wasted,
drunk on love,
or hate
maybe,
depending.
Good on him.
(via kathpine)